god i wish i would have found a way out its the last time we were happy ever happy.

i go on long drives and i drive in a wide circle, i dont touch the fenceposts, i park and stare out the window and pretend im waiting for you, i walk downstairs in fear of bang bang bang and all the lights go out. in the parking lot you said sorry sorry sorry and i lied and i lied and i tried but i lied and lets put her in st. mungos certainly they will find a cure, there is no solution for the incurably sad. i cry at each lamp post and i cry at each secluded park and i cry outside each home and i punch pale legs as hard as i can which isn't so hard as ive lost 100 pounds maybe more. restaurants i hate it i see your car everywhere every neighborhood has memories may i request a lobotomy once they commit me to la la la of white coats and a small cot, participate in groups and watch the television all day, revert to catatonia i cannot hear a word you are saying matthew my heartsweet my matty moo please help me.

is this the end -
or just the start of
something really really beautiful
wrapped up and disguised as
something really really ugly

im happy

i also love mylifeisgood

we can do this together.
one: one day at a time
two: stand up for ourselves
three: dont look back into the sun

everyone has a secret so bite your mother tongue
and let the truth bleed over you, you open sheep-skin



you are so young
:so feel alive

you used to be so nice you used to be so good

[shh]

if summer has more days like this then maaaaaaaaaybe it will be alright




it was the summer of love and i thank the stars above because the woman took a loving over me and just to gain her trust i bought a microbus because i sold off all my personal property a tight tye-dye dress she was a psychedelic mess we toured to the north, south, east, and west we sold some mushroom tea we sold some ecstasy we sold nitrous, opium, acid, heroin, and pcp and now i hear the police coming after me...